It Was Like She Punched Me In The Gut!

When I read the words she wrote about me last week it felt like I got punched in the gut. 🤛🏼I had never heard anyone make fun of my “in their opinion” physical “flaw” before. And honestly, it sent me over the edge that day. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It popped up in my facebook notifications and it was cruel and others joined in. 🥺 Unfortunately I had already been struggling with comparison, and feelings of not being good enough that day. So it hit me extra hard.  I know their comments should not bother me, but words are powerful, and I’ve struggled not to notice what they said every time I look in the mirror since then. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I’m sharing this vulnerable story with you, because sadly I don’t think I’m alone. 🤦🏽‍♀️It breaks my heart to see this woman in her 50’s (and many other women from this ad) say such cruel things to another woman. Any hurtful thing said to another person breaks my heart. 💔But it shows me the condition of their heart. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ When we are filled with love and peace within ourselves, there’s not room for comparison & envy. But when we are starving for attention, affirmation, feelings of not being good enough: we will grab at anything we think will make ourselves feel better, for some; that means tearing apart someone else (even people online or on TV) 💔It might temporally relieve the void they are feeling, but it leaves them more isolated & bitter. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I read 📖 Colossians 3 in my devo. time the next morning. It talks about… “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things…Put to death; sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed… rid yourselves of: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. As God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience…forgive as the Lord forgave you.” ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I asked for this to make me and others better and not bitter. ❤️The temptation is to grab at envy & comparison, but let’s say no to those toxic things and hold onto the truth: each person is beautifully and wonderfully made, unique and has a purpose. What are you celebrating that I can celebrate with you? 

#letters #jesus #hope #peace #joy